TLC for Despina
From: My friend
To: Me
Subject: TLC for Despina
Date: Wed, 10 Oct 2007 22:22:26 +0000
My dear Despina
I’ve just read your blog and am very concerned about how you are feeling. ***** is in London all week (she won’t be at rehearsal on Sun) but I’ve read your blog to her and she will try and phone you tomorrow (Thu); I’m joining her in London for Fri and Sat. Apart from sending you cyber hugs and tlc I don’t know if I can be of much help to you, - but I am thinking of you. You’ve got lots of friends and many of them have been close to where you are now. Hang in there.
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My reply:
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You and ***** are both lovely.
I know it sounds stupid to say but, for the most part, I am coping. Things are looking up for me, I’m shedding a lot of unnecessary responsibilities and working out what matters. (I’m not doing the show and have also turned down some more offers…)
I am very very stressed right now.
You see me when I’m at my happiest. I have an amazing boyfriend who doesn’t expect too much of me right now, but believes me to be capable of anything. Just knowing that I have people like you and ***** in my life is enough to make me feel better.
Often I forget just who reads my blog. I feel like such an attention-seeker at times. But I’m having to face up to it - yes, I am ill. Things have happened to me that I don’t really want to talk about but I have to, and then I will leave them behind me and I will get there.
In the meantime I will just enjoy the good days and live through the bad ones. I have a lot to feel happy about.
Don’t worry yourself too much about me - I am a brave girl! That’s not to say I don’t appreciate your contacting me. Thank you xxx
I hope you have a good time in London, tell ***** that if she doesn’t contact me, I won’t have a breakdown. I’m sure she is busy. But that is lovely of her to be there for me.
***, I’m on the up. I promise. I will be fine.
Really looking forward to Sunday!
xxx
