The good, the bad, and the bikini

The good:

  • Picking up as much for a week’s singing / modelling work as I would have done for working upwards of 30 hours in Boots.
  • Doing a concert with the fabulous M.
  • Getting a nasty essay handed in.
  • Good friends.
  • Loads of opera ahead, loads of it!
  • New dress!
  • Lunch with G.
  • Being smoke-free.
  • Loving somebody.

The bad:

  • Being tired and having an eye infection to prove it.
  • Menstruation.
  • Weight gain!
  • Still a mountain of work to do and little hope of an extension.
  • Discovering that members of my extended family are in fact disgusting, bigotted racists.
  • Having no sense of direction and consequently always getting myself lost.
  • Missing S.
  • Travelling.
  • Learning said opera.
  • My room still being a bomb-site.
  • Loving somebody.

The bikini:

  • A lovely turquoise halter-neck from M&S. Size 12.
  • This is the body that’s supposed to go in it:

dress

Posted: April 13, 2008 Comments (7)

My 2007

Anne my love, thanks for tagging me in this insightful meme, and shaming me into blogging again! 

1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before? Many things! I lived in a foreign country for three months, I did two singing and acting roles on the stage at the Royal Northern College of Music (one was the main role). I moved house six times. I ate octopus. I got fined by two Hungarian ticket inspectors, and a Czech policeman. I painted my toenails turquoise. I heard jazz in central Europe.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? If I made any last year, I probably didn’t keep them. I have a few resolutions for next year, but the main ones are to put more effort into doing things socially as a couple with Jez, and to take control of my depression.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No-one in the UK!

4. Did anyone close to you die? No, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit? Scotland, Poland, Hungary, Czech Republic.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? Stability. Please!

7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? May 11th - one year of Despina and Jez. And all the dates I counted down to in Prague. Concert dates too, 13th November in particular.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Learning to speak Czech!

9. What was your biggest failure? Not doing as well as I could have done in uni.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? One bad chest infection, cutting off the top of my thumb, styes, and of course the ubiquitous depression.

11. What was the best thing you bought? A brown and cream silk skirt, a la Audrey Hepburn, with matching brown ballet pumps shoes (I’ve had it 6 months and worn it once!) Also, a shedload of sheet music!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Jez has been amazing this year. Many friends have been very good to me, but Jez’s capacity for supportiveness, understanding, compassion, forgiveness, and pure love, remains unmatched. Mags has been here for me both physically and virtually, and passed all her exams second time round. Mum turned her back on a horrible career and is now enjoying being a retired lady of leisure. Dad coped with redundancy, bounced back and is now doing a bit of everything, being wonderful as always (but is working a bit too hard). Kyne was also a really good friend in Prague, dragging me out to the pub and various places, when I just wanted to hide, and making sure I ate properly.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? My own, recently.

14. Where did most of your money go? Phone bills, I think!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Moving house recently with Jez, seeing Don Giovanni / Manon Lescaut in Prague, dancing on the Danube, seeing Jez after 6 weeks without him, making Christmas, going to Budapest, singing in Czech, learning Glitter and be Gay and hitting the highest notes I’ve ever sung, playing Yum-Yum, being thin enough to wear my favourite dresses, hearing Rachmaninov 2nd symphony, and many, many more things!

16. What song will always remind you of 2007? Too early to say, but certainly any Klezmer or anything by Lakatos, or Julie Fowlis, or the Pulp Fiction soundtrack, or Don Giovanni!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer? A bit sadder I think, and certainly not richer, but considerably thinner. (I yo-yod between 10 and 14 this year, I’m now a curvaceous 12!)

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Travelling in the Czech Republic, making time for my friends, studying.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Working, dwelling on things, being a rubbish girlfriend, abusing my body and my mind, and fucking up my life in general!

20. How did you spend Christmas? In my beautiful new home, with my family and Jez’s family. It was a really perfect Christmas Day, in fact.

21. Did you fall in love in 2007? Yes, more and more in love.

22. What was your favorite TV program? Can’t answer this one, as I don’t have a TV!

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? No. I’ve realised how much energy it takes to hate someone, and no-one is worth that when there are so many people worthy of better than hatred.

24. What was the best book you read? Ooooooh I can’t answer this! I’m currently reading the Philip Pullman trilogy and finding it mindblowing, but I loved The Historan and The Icarus Girl, and Immortality, and Inventing the Victorians.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? That I can sightread!

26. What did you want and get? To have the happiest week of my life. (And the worst.)

27. What did you want and not get? So many things.

28. What was your favourite film of this year? La vie en rose.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was 22, and I seem to remember it was the first time I saw the house where I now live, and I thought it was beautiful. Then I think Jez made me something delicious to eat, or maybe we went out somewhere… maybe I was a bit drunk.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? More self-belief.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? Classic, with a few quirky twists. Three quarter length trousers with ballet pumps, lots of jewellery. Tailoring. Killer heels.

32. What kept you sane? Music.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I don’t really do celeb crushes, but if I had to choose, I suppose Vincent Delerm (Sorry Jez but it is all your fault.)

34. What political issue stirred you the most? The police and government’s reaction to the murder of Jean Charles de Menezes. The words "a corporate failure" remain etched on my mind. I am appalled.

35. Who did you miss? Everyone I’ve managed to alienate in the last year. And in Prague, obviously I missed Jez and my family. I’ve missed Catherine since she went to uni.

36. Who was the best new person you met? Kindest, funniest, or downright strangest? Too many to mention - not just new friends in 2007, but people I knew before who I am now much closer to. That’s a nice feeling.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007. I will consider my response to this and write a separate blog post about it. But I am beginning to realise just what a big responsiblity life can be.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Plusieurs indices m’ont mis la puce à l’oreille
J’ouvre l’oeil
J’vais faire une enquète pour en avoir le coeur net
Ca m’inquiète

Y a des détails qui trompent pas

Les draps la couette et la taie d’oreiller
Sont plus dépareillés
A coté de mes fringues en boule
Y a des vêtements pliés et repassés

Y a des détails qui trompent pas
J’crois qu’y a une fille qu’habite chez moi !

Deux brosses à dent dans la salle de bain
Du savon sans savon et le sèche-cheveux
C’est certainement pas le mien
Des petites boules bizarres
Pour parfumer la baignoire
C’est un vrai cauchemar
Quelqu’un a massacré tous mes amis cafards !

Dans la cuisine des sachets de thé
De verveine de camomille
Un message sur le répondeur d’une mère
Qu’est pas la mienne
V’là qu’elle s’en prend à ma famille !

Y a des détails qui trompent pas

Quelqu’un en douce a fait la vaiselle
Où sont mes habitudes mon ménage trimestriel ?
J’ouvre le frigo horreur c’est d’la folie !
Y a plein de légumes !
Y a même des fruits !

Y a des détails qui trompent pas
J’crois qu’y a une fille qu’habite chez moi !

Où sont mes potes qui glandaient devant la télé
Les boîtes de pizza les paquets de chips éventrés
Les mégots de cigarettes écrasés dans les assiettes
Ma collection de new look ? Aux oubliettes !

Sur la table de nuit y a plus de capotes mais de l’aspirine
Y a une fille qu’habite chez moi
Y a aussi des bougies contre l’odeur de la nicotine
Y a une fille qu’habite chez moi !

Y a des détails qui trompent pas

Y a un vrai rideau y a plus un drap cloué sur la fenêtre !
Qu’est-ce que c’est que ça ? Mon Dieu, c’est une plante verte !

L’aspirateur est encore chaud
C’est trop je porte plainte !
Je vais l’emmener au labo
Pour vérifier les empreintes

On dirait que je suis plus célibataire
La coupable je la tiens
Elle est devant l’étau se resserre
Accrochée au téléphone assise en tailleur
Dans une jolie robe à fleur
Une fille me dit "Arrête ton cinéma
Et le loyer j’le paye autant que toi !"

(Bénabar, Y a une fille qui habite chez moi)

Posted: January 2, 2008 Comments (6)

No time no time no time

No time no time no time!

Sorry I am stupidly busy at the moment but everything is going well! Thanks for the good wishes everyone, I wish I had time to fill you in and thank you properly.

Next week I’ll be going to my first chamber choir practice and my first Candide rehearsal, my first Italian lesson of the new year, and maybe my new job (fingers crossed) also the secret lovely thing (and don’t worry Mum, you know what this is!) is getting closer to being reality. (The post I apologised for was just me being stupid and childish!)

We were in the park (the biggest metropolitan park in Europe) all afternoon, taking photos to go on my various adverts - concert programmes, online, posters in churches and bridal shops, etc. There are some stunning head / shoulders shots, but the full length ones would be nicer in a better outfit, my skirt was just a bit too short! I look like a doll on some of the photos though, they will make great "head shots". I was also pleased with the amount of weight I’ve shed since Prague, just by being happier and looking after myself.

Now I’m going to go and quickly read my favourite blogs, then I’m giving my house a very urgent clean! 

Posted: September 30, 2007 Comments (8)

This post is mainly about Despina’s bottom but it gets a bit more serious at the end.

When I woke up at 7:30 this morning, I was stark naked in a strange bed, in a plush hotel just off Wenceslas Square.

Well, that got you listening!

No, the only reason I was starkers was because I’d stayed out all night and didn’t have a change of clothes. I met my friend O (my old schoolfriend who’s dead crazy) who was here with his mum, a lady who used to teach us, and another friend. When I arrived I think their intoxication levels were already quite high. We drank many G&Ts, ate at a great pub on Wenceslas Square, and went back and drank some more. This morning my worst fears about my behaviour were confirmed when O showed me a video clip in which I am singing Gounod’s Ave Maria and feeling myself suggestively. Then I looked through the sent messages on my phone and quickly sent Jez an apology for the explicit drunken text I’d sent him. But I don’t think he was that bothered really, he’s used to it!

I stayed for breakfast which was wonderful, so many different foods, including the most random item I’d ever seen on a breakfast table - artichoke hearts. Who eats those for breakfast? I stuck with my blue cheese and sausage sandwich and drank about six cups of strong coffee. I didn’t feel any less crappy after this, but at least I could keep my eyes open. Actually, I was incapable of blinking. So we had some more champagne and then we almost felt ready to face the world.

You know I said I was getting a wee bit chubby? Well, operation Shrinking Despina was not a success, which doesn’t really bother me, except that this morning I realised that my trousers had split. The sexy black trousers I’m wearing to kiss the naked man statue. A great big open 2 inch split on the left bumcheek. Now, whilst I do believe my bottom to be peachier and lovelier than the average bottom, I don’t want to walk around Prague with it hanging out for all to see!

Actually you know, today is the first time I’ve ever been sexually harrassed in Prague - well, if you don’t count the Italian bloke (which you shouldn’t, because sexual harrassment and true love are two very different things). Or the Sergei incident (shh)! Today I was crossing the road and a man with a dog started shouting something to me - the only words I understood were "you have" and "lovely". I didn’t know what he was describing, but from his gestures I could tell that there were two of them and they were round.

It was my last day at work today. I’ve realised that laughter, tears, and hugs know no language barriers. I didn’t want to get upset, but oops, I did. But I also know that I will stay in touch with a few people, especially the director - when I am in court for plagiarism and excessive blogging, Alena - who was my mum for three months, Jarka - who is just great, and Simon - who runs the medical museum, is eccentric and intellectual, and has a quirky, dry sense of humour that I adore.

I’m off to the airport now! Woohoo! Finally, the Jezmister is here!

Posted: August 31, 2007 Comments (4)